Thursday, July 28, 2011

Fingerprint-a-phobic

Glass doors, glasses, screens, drinking glasses, ATM machines, public counter tops, TAPE, glue, cell phone screens, remove controls.... what do these have in common?  FEAR! One of the worst fears is using tape at work! How do you use tape without leaving your fingerprints on it?  You can't!


Obviously I am the only person on this earth with the fear of leaving behind fingerprints!  I have searched for information on this subject for several years.  I have never committed any crime so fear of getting caught is not the issue.  I fear people retrieving my prints and using them for... something?  I have a Bachelor of Science degree in Justice Studies and Criminal Justice I understand about fingerprint.


I admit I do have several OCD tendencies.  I have admitted it here on my blog as well, well I kinda make fun of it.  As I was doing research on this and I realized I have always been like this.  


Actually, I think it began with a traumatic event in 2004. A man had been stalking me, I had gotten a restraining order on him but he still persisted. He continued to break into my home on a daily basis, unscrew light bulbs outside, sawed bolts off the windows I had bolted shut, unlocked windows and went through our dirty laundry on a regular basis. 


One day I came home for lunch from work and discovered him crawling across my kitchen floor. Yes, scared the living crap out of me!  I screamed bloody murder and called the police from in the front yard. He crawled out a back window and I saw him running through the back yard.  He tried to jump over the fence but stopped when I screamed at him.  He begged and pleaded for me not to call the police (I was on the phone with them at the time). He stripped off the surgical gloves he was wearing, tucked them behind the fence post, and sat criss-cross-applesauce on the ground begging for me to let him go.  


When the officer arrived and cuffed this man I told him about the gloves.  That officer made me SWEAR to never ever ever drop that restraining order ever - the officer said that that man would eventually kill me.  After all what kind of man would wear surgical gloves when breaking into a home if he did not plan on some kind of bodily harm.  Especially since his fingerprints were all over the house already since this man was my estranged husband of 17 years whom I had been trying to divorce, with whom I share four children.


Why didn't I think of this before?  That HAS to be it. I used to LOVE wrapping presents.  I lacked one art history class in college to minor in art and fingerprints are all over art.  It never bothered me before. I sure am not going to let "him" win out by me continuing with this fear.  So I am deciding right here and now....this phobia is over!  Right now.  Now that I know what caused this fear I can control it right?  


Lord Jesus give me strength to not allow fear to have control over me.
2 Timothy 1:7- For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.

Psalm 56:3-4 - When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I shall not be afraid. What can flesh do to me?



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3 comments:

  1. I, too, have a fear of fingerprints. I will only use a glass once before tossing it in the dishwasher and retrieving a fresh one for a refill. Computer monitors, tape, windows, mirrors, phones, you name it. I have lately developed several ridiculous fears, including climbing stairs. Have you found any other information on the fingerprints thing though? I've been searching without any luck.

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  3. Hi, I am so glad to find your blog because I too have this ridiculous fear. I don't know what caused it however once i became aware of it so many things from my life made sense like how I always mess my shoes up because I cant walk straight because i can't let my toes touch the ground for fear of leaving prints. I am at my wits end on what to do, I know it's quite irrational however I can't seem to stop. I have never been in trouble with the law and I remember having this since the 3rd grade. If you have any tips on how to cope with it i will be beyond grateful as it screws with my life as Im a weightress and my job is beyond hard because i need to always wear gloves and even so I can't use my fingertips. I need some help in this area so please get back to me!!!!!

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