Should I Read my Oncology Report?

Today marks the day, six years ago that I had my breast cancer surgery while I was 29 weeks pregnant with Kiera.  I understand that the walk I have been on throughout my life contributes to who I have become.  However, I am tired of it.  I am grateful for the opportunity to be a survivor, a lot of other men and women do not get the same conclusion to their cancer fight.  I started this blog in hopes of continuing to help others going through the same fight be encouraged and have faith that there certainly can be a wonderful outcome.  But, honestly, I am kinda tired of thinking about cancer.


At work last week a customer and I talked at great length about it.  She had the same exact cancer and diagnosis as I did. I enjoy that. I do.


I was chatting with a group of friends on Facebook about my urge to read the Oncology reports I never could get myself to read all the way through. The last time I tried I got three paragraphs into the first page and read "extremely high chance of disease recurrence" I was in tears for days.  I mentioned to my friends that maybe I should read them through because maybe the doctor changed him mind later on.  A Sweet friend replied. "Maybe GOD changed his mind! You are here with us, you are healthy! Why get all depressed because of what someone said 6 years ago!?!" and another great friend said "Will reading this enrich (my) life in some way? Do (I) feel like there is some need behind reading it? Is there a reason it would be worth."  Another suggested I "make (myself) a cake and celebrate!" another "agree(d). Live life to the fullest."


Don't I have marvelous friends???  I do. I know I do.  No looking back, move onward. Enjoy life to it's fullest. I heard that 90% of what we worry about never happens anyhow! 


ps... I love you ladies!

 <3 Tammy

Six Year Cancerversary

Today is Friday the thirteenth of January, 2012. On Friday the thirteenth of January, 2006 I was five months pregnant with my fifth child getting a biopsy on my breast.  As you know since you are reading this blog the results would come back Monday as positive for Stage II Invasive Ductal Carcinoma, followed by surgery, then induced childbirth, chemotherapy and radiation.

Honestly, these last six years have seemed like about 15. It has been a challenge but I am grateful that I am able to continue to be a part of my children's lives.

Here's to another forty years cancer free!