Kiki's First Fish

While we were camping Kiki decided she would fish.  

We had no poles. She didn't care. She found a stringer and a hook and put on a piece of leftover sausage. Low and behold after about two minutes, SHE HAD A FISH!!!

She asked for a fishing pole for Christmas.

Kiera is Engaged

Kiki told me a story tonight: When she was on the school bus today a boy asked her "Will you marry me?" Kiki being in kindergarten told the boy, "no". She then told me, "But mommy, he is handsome." (Mommy and Miranda both say awe..... Now your turn.)

My Five Year Old Daughter and Her Children are Moving In

We will be going to the Dollar Tree this evening after picking up all the bigger kids from track practice and drama practice today. Kiki is armed with her bag of money (2.60) saved from discoveries around the house and her first youth fairy visit.
While we drive to the Junior High:
Kiki: Maybe I should save all this money do I can buy a house.
Me: Houses cost ALOT of money honey. More than you can count.
Kiki:  Oh
Later, Kiki: Mommy, when I am a mom I am going to live with you.
Me: Why? So I can help with the kids?
Kiki:  no.
Me: Because you love me so much?
Kiki:  No.
Me:  Then why Kiki?
Kiki:  Because I don't have enough money to buy a house.
Love her!

Paper golf phase 2

Nathan expanded his paper golf course!

Kitchen Aid Breast Cancer Awareness Goodies

A friends at work have me an awesome Anniversary present today!  Looky!

Paper Golf Anyone?

Nathan, my little brilliant 12 year old, apparently was bored after he completed the mock testing at school yesterday. He created this elaborate paper ball golf course. The double with the ramp and chute certainly would be a challenge.

Should I Read my Oncology Report?

Today marks the day, six years ago that I had my breast cancer surgery while I was 29 weeks pregnant with Kiera.  I understand that the walk I have been on throughout my life contributes to who I have become.  However, I am tired of it.  I am grateful for the opportunity to be a survivor, a lot of other men and women do not get the same conclusion to their cancer fight.  I started this blog in hopes of continuing to help others going through the same fight be encouraged and have faith that there certainly can be a wonderful outcome.  But, honestly, I am kinda tired of thinking about cancer.


At work last week a customer and I talked at great length about it.  She had the same exact cancer and diagnosis as I did. I enjoy that. I do.


I was chatting with a group of friends on Facebook about my urge to read the Oncology reports I never could get myself to read all the way through. The last time I tried I got three paragraphs into the first page and read "extremely high chance of disease recurrence" I was in tears for days.  I mentioned to my friends that maybe I should read them through because maybe the doctor changed him mind later on.  A Sweet friend replied. "Maybe GOD changed his mind! You are here with us, you are healthy! Why get all depressed because of what someone said 6 years ago!?!" and another great friend said "Will reading this enrich (my) life in some way? Do (I) feel like there is some need behind reading it? Is there a reason it would be worth."  Another suggested I "make (myself) a cake and celebrate!" another "agree(d). Live life to the fullest."


Don't I have marvelous friends???  I do. I know I do.  No looking back, move onward. Enjoy life to it's fullest. I heard that 90% of what we worry about never happens anyhow! 


ps... I love you ladies!

 <3 Tammy

Six Year Cancerversary

Today is Friday the thirteenth of January, 2012. On Friday the thirteenth of January, 2006 I was five months pregnant with my fifth child getting a biopsy on my breast.  As you know since you are reading this blog the results would come back Monday as positive for Stage II Invasive Ductal Carcinoma, followed by surgery, then induced childbirth, chemotherapy and radiation.

Honestly, these last six years have seemed like about 15. It has been a challenge but I am grateful that I am able to continue to be a part of my children's lives.

Here's to another forty years cancer free!